Life, Friends...

I think blogging happens when Im feeling down... Its kind of lame, maybe thats just me though.

I dont know how i became so antisocial its not like I want to be, I just dont know how to communicate comfortably with people. I guess its an issue with myself.

I still really only have my friends form high school in Texas which was gosh... 6 years ago. I have people I work with that are cool and I talk to when I am at work but I dont hang out with them.
So technically I havnt made a real friend in at least five years.

Im in and out of contact with Texas friends but as of lately I have been trying to talk to them more, Steph, Linda, Carrie, Katelyn.... but i just dont feel much response maybe because im asking for too much.

I dont know

But I need some friends... who call me
check up on me
talk to me

Gosh I am lame.

<3

Montrose Beach

Memorial day 2011

The past

is not the future....

I'm not sure I like it, in fact I don't, I hate it.

Foggy Beach

Too early? I think not.

Send Presents ASAP! :)

Why am I so "quiet"?

People I work with and go to school with want to know why I am so quiet. I don't talk much and when I do I guess I don't show very much personality. My family and close friends know I'm not always quiet, and I have a lot of crazy personality to offer, however Its just hard to show off when I am not comfortable with someone. Anyways when I am at work or even school I day dream a lot. I can think of so may scenarios all day long and think about many things that "I'm going to do!" but are always just thoughts that never get shared with anyone.Recently even my sister has told me that I may come off as "a stick in the mud" when in public, it was crazy to hear that because I don't feel that way at all. Its something I want to work on, but will take time and me being really open which will be really difficult. Its crazy how introverted I have become the older I get.